zebrahest On The Road and At Her Mac: September 2008

Monday, September 29, 2008

Being Emotional

My latest post prompted more than one guy to ask me if I was talking about him. First off, if you actually take time to write me and ask, odds are I'm not talking about you. Second, the post was more emotional* than the posts I usually write.

I like to think my posts through and write them in a calm and rational fashion. While I did think a lot about my last post, it was not all that calm and rational. I considered if I should post it at all. But I decided that it's my blog and, as much as I try, I can't be calm, rational, or even just reasonable all the time.

I'm not really fond of the emotional side of myself. If I could, I would be reasonable and rational all the time. Or at the very least reasonable and rational about being unreasonable and irrational. But that's just not the case.

When I wrote the last post, I was angry, and writing it only made me more angry. I was in no mood to make sure I was being fair and reasonable. But instead of hiding that side of me, I chose to post and expose it. Because that's also part of who I am**.

*Emotional meaning "controlled by emotions" rather than "about emotions"
**This is already way too emotional for my taste!